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Who’ll Stop the Rain?

I hate rainy days.  Those gloomy, all day long, gray, rainy days.  They’re miserable and all I ever want to do is sleep.  I want to hide in my cave of an apartment and sleep.  Wake up long enough to eat some soup and then go back to sleep.  I have bear-like instincts.  It’s yucky outside and I just want to hibernate until the sky looks better.  Dreary, rainy days are terrible.

But I love apples, and flowers, and trees, and… breathing.

The thing about rain is, that we need it.  We really really need it.  As crappy as they are, they are extremely necessary.  The rain makes plants grow and plants are good to eat, or look at, or at very least, they create oxygen.  Even though I have a negative physical reaction to these days of gloom, I end up really enjoying the result.

Sometimes, things we hate are exactly what we need.  Things that make us miserable now, are preparing us for something fantastic in the future.  Sometimes we have to put up with today, so that we can enjoy tomorrow.  You have to go to work today to earn a paycheck, so you can go out on Friday.  Or…..so you can pay your electric bill and not freeze to death in the winter.

It seems to me that God sometimes uses confusing, strange, not so good circumstances and events to shape us into the person we need to become.. the person we’re supposed to become.  He brings us to problems so that we learn to trust Him, but also so that we can learn.

It’s no secret that I pretty much despise  my boss, but through my interactions with her I am learning to love the unlovable, to overcome evil with kindness, to become more patient.  I am learning to pray and forgive someone who does…pretty much nothing to deserve it.  If nothing else she has provided me with plenty to blog about and I am *cough* grateful for that opportunity.

And someday…..God please someday… I’m going to have an actual career and this time I’ve spent in oppressive servitude will have given me skills and knowledge I will need.  It will help me to appreciate my awesome new job.

What can you really know about yourself if you’ve never experienced pain, or loss, or rejection.  If no one has ever been mean to you, or treated you unfairly, how can you appreciate the people in your life who love you?  If every day were sunny and 75 degrees, you wouldn’t appreciate the weather.  You’d have no basis of comparison.  You need to accept the rainy days.  Or the snow.  A cold day or gloomy winter, makes it all the more glorious when the sun comes back.

Take the time in your current circumstances to learn and grow.

(Photo By pennacook)

Learn and Grow (Another year undercooked)

Today I turn 29.

29.  There it is.  Almost 30.  This number seems much higher than it should be.  I don’t feel 29.

I feel like a cake that isn’t fully baked.  Still mostly batter inside.  If you put any pressure on me, I’m unstable, still gooey.  I’m going to give us all salmonella.

Most of the time I feel like I’ve been on the verge of starting my life for over 10 years now.  Always teetering on the edge of so much opportunity and never falling over… never actually getting started.

When you’re 18 they tell you that the world is your oyster .  Problem is that I’ve been scratching at the outside of the oyster for 11 years and I feel no closer to finding whats inside it than I was at high school graduation.

But lately, I’ve been a bit less panicked about speeding towards 30.  I’ve gained a bit of perspective on things.  I’ve been thinking about the greatest person who ever lived.  Jesus.  Someone who still  has major impact on the world 2000 years after his death.

Pretty much everything we know about Jesus Christ happened after he turned 30.  Other than being born and teaching at the temple when he’s 12, the bible says one thing about what Jesus did in his early years.

“And Jesus grew in wisdom and in stature, and in favor with God and men.”

Before that line he’s 12 and the next thing we read after, he’s 30 and being baptized.  All the years between, he spent learning and growing.

Learn and grow.

Jesus spent most of his life preparing for his great purpose.

As far as I can tell, Jesus didn’t own a house, or get married and have kids (SHUT UP DAN BROWN).  He certainly didn’t drive a flashy sports car and have a solid 401k.  His life wasn’t measured by our opinion of success.

So, I’m not going to worry or stress out about turning 29 and still being so undercooked.  I also reject the world’s opinion of success.  I’m ignoring the oyster.  It will open when it’s ready.

I will spend the next year learning and growing.  Preparing for whatever lies ahead and helping others learn and grow if I can.

I might spend 30 more years learning and growing before I’m fully cooked and I’m ok with that.

(Photo By chidorian)

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas readers!  My hope is that you all have a wonderful day.

Long after the paper is trashed, the gift cards are used up and you’ve long forgotten what was in those boxes under the tree, I hope you carry with you the warm memories you create today.  That is the real gift.  I hope you feel the love of God and the love of your friends and family today and in the new year.

Have a great Christmas.

(Photo By valeblos)

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